I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
But i always tell the truth,
Even when I lie.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Me writing this tells u that things turned out better than i expected on friday. well well, i have till the 15th of dec now. i find my life very frustrating. it's like my whole life is governed by a piece of paper with money attached telling me wad to do when to do it and how to do it. oh well i guess its the price i pay for letting my guard down. but oh well life goes on it seems and i want to grab every moment i have left by the balls.
i havent wrote over the weekend due to sheer lack of time.
hey hey i met up with dino and the man is doing great i tell u. changed quite a bit from back then when we were stuck in shit together. still cant get over his hair tho. i used to be like rubbing shoulders with his shoulder, ( lol wonder if that sounds right)but now its a short decent BLACK hairstyle. i highlight BLACK cos my dear boys hair was never black, it was always a combination of colours such as purple, silver lalala..... the list goes on. anyway just wanna shout out to the man. you're doing AOK bro keep up the good work.
sat was a tiring day for me cos raj and myself went to monteros pub at goldhill plaza on friday night. that smart boy told me he wanted to drink, but came to pick me up in his girls dads car. so in the end it was just me who drank like one and a half jugs of beer. so yeah i was a bit kinda shaky ( i still managed to give raj hokkien tuiton tho ). anyway enough bout friday.
on sat, love was all around me.
i attended not one but two sacraments of matrimony!!!
well actually it was just one ya cos one wasnt a catholic marriage. first one was at like 1130 in the morning. headed down to st marys for mass and lunch. i was tingling with anticipation for the wedding as i heard it was gonna be a military wedding. for those of you who dint know, my mum and dad had a military wedding, so i always wanted to see wad its like. yes yes im a son of a military gun!
but hold your horses man. i was disappointed in the end as the only thing militaryish bout the wedding was the fact that the groom was wearing his uniform. aside from that, everything else was the same. no sword salute or any of that military display.
the intriguing thing bout that wedding was the fact that not only did the bride and groom exchange wedding bands, but the groom also presented the bride with a "thali"- the thing that is tied around the necks of brides in the hindu custom. thali in church?? wads happening here?? after mass we had luncheon. the food was alright. oh yes i forgot.......i think the bride had a crush on me or something cos she kept looking at me and smiling.
after lunch went to grandmas and slept for half an hour before going to meet the refugee from down under.
SYBRENNE!!!!!!
yeah shes back and along with baggages in excess of 7 kilos. LOLX.
yeah yeah met her for 4 o'clock novena and we went for tea. sorry syb but i have to tell the people the truth......her face is so round man. looking a bit more like her sis la. similarity confined to face only. so ya we caught up and guess wad, i found out that raymond is oready in the navy man. has been there for months oready!!! woohoo!! baris sediiiiiiiiaaa!!! dari kiri cepat jaaaaaaalaaan!!! ( my days have passed )
after syb left fr paul key ( not sure bout the spelling ) blessed my tattoo. i actually felt something after he blessed it. maybe it was the holy spirit. maybe the damn sun beating down on my back ( it was a hot day ).
met mum dad and the offsprings. went for the dinner. the dinner wad a total turn off. when the bride and broom proceeded down the red carpet, there was no applause. i consulte mum about this as it disturbed me. THIS WAS THE BRIDES 3RD ATTEMPT AT MARRIED LIFE!!!
God bless her.
God bless him even more.
today was my usual soccer sunday. wasnt quite up to form today. still fighting within myself as to whether i should shave my head again or not. im done for now.....
Lord please help those who cant help themselves.
Mother Mary please pray for those who dont know how to pray.
So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters
Finally Free
Hypnotherapist:
"You are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light. Allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this lifetime. As the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into consciousness remembering all you have learned. When I tell you to open your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and refreshed. Open your eyes, Nicholas."
The Miracle:
Friday evening
The blood still on my hands
To think that she would leave me now
For that ungrateful man
Sole survivor
No witness to the crime
I must act fast to cover up
I think that there's still time
He'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
They'll buy into the words that I wrote
"This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
I'd take my own life before losing you"
Victoria:
Feeling good this Friday afternoon
I ran into Julian
Said we'd get together soon
He's always had my heart
He needs to know
I'll break free of the Miracle
It's time for him to go
This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
He'd kill his brother if he only knew
Their love renewed
They'd rendezvous
In a pathway out of view
They thought no one knew
Then came a shot out of the night
The Sleeper:
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
Until we fade away
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
We fade away
As their bodies lie still
And the ending draws near
Spirits rise through the air
All their fears disappear, it all becomes clear
A blinding light comes into view
An old soul exchanged for a new
A familiar voice comes shining through
Nicholas:
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
I learned about my life by living through you
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
Living my own life by learning from you
We'll meet again my friend someday soon
CNN report:
"news in London, France, Russia and Italy have deleted their lead story, all anticipating the outcome of the man considered to be a member of American nobility. And as you can imagine, as the skies have grown darker here over Washington, the mood has grown darker as well and people here are beginning to resign themselves to the possibility that they are witnessing yet another tragedy in a long string of misfortunes. Reaction from everywhere, from Washington and certainly from around the world has gues..."
Hypnotherapist:
"Open your eyes, Nicholas."
Nicholas:
"AAAH!"
Cannonball
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
