I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
But i always tell the truth,
Even when I lie.
Thursday, December 08, 2005
GOOD MORNING!!!
it's a beautiful day isnt it lol. i slept at like 0230 in the morning and just woke up not too long ago. besides ytd afternoon i slept the whole afternoon on jeremys bed. wooohooo. i guess the sleep has helped rearrange my mindframe. so the day is looking good i tell ya people.
( go d/ld "i love you to death" )
spent most of yesterday playing the play station. yeah yeah. winning eleven 8 from morning till i think like lunch time. then HBO was showing i love you to death. this is a classic by my standards. then slept till around 5 - 6. was awoken by dad calling me saying my new girlfriend was looking for me.
yeah, so sighz had to drag out of bed and shower. good thing bout this girls is that she picks me up all the time. lol. not that i like the intrusion ya, but oh well. chatted with her awhile before heading down to meet shaun at novena.
shaun picked me up too. headed to neil road for dinner and also cos shaun wanted to return jeff his shirt. jeff met us for dinner. had our usual chicken fried rice. went back to jeff's place after dinner and his dad wasnt home which was good. jeff is like going to be 30 soon yet his dad behaves like jeff is still 13. XXXXX i had a shower at jeffs place before we headed down to klub rekreasi keretapi ( railway recreation club ) it's your typical underground club with sex, drugs and rock and roll. it's on malaysian land. our boys in blue have no jurisdiction there. so yeah.
got home around 0040 and went to bed around the abovementioned time.
todays a loooonggg day man.
miss angela THUMB just asked me to go ktv, bowling and play badminton all at once. hmmm hey sybrenne we can play badminton in the ktv room, but i dont see how we could possibly squeeze in the bowling. any suggestions?? sad but true i had to turn her down cos i have plans today. yeah. so sorry. don't worry ill still get u your kenzo flower for christmas. LOLX.
i've to go to ICA building today to settle my IC, then i've to head down to school to settle some admin stuff, after which i'll be going for mass. gym will follow mass, so ya as you can see it's gonna be a busy busy day.
I LEFT MY ROSARY AT JEREMY"S HOUSE YTD......FUCK
dear Lord be the grease in my tires and let things run smoothly today.
Mother Mary, be my brembos and help me stop when required.
When you were here before Couldn't look you in the eye You're just like an angel Your skin makes me cry You float like a feather In a beautiful world I wish I was special You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts I want to have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul I want you to notice when I'm not around You're so fucking special I wish I was special
But I'm a creep I'm a weirdo What the hell I'm doing here? I don't belong here
She's running out again She's running out She runs runs runs
Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want You're so fucking special I wish I was special
But I'm a creep I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here I don't belong here
So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters
Finally Free
Hypnotherapist:
"You are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light. Allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this lifetime. As the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into consciousness remembering all you have learned. When I tell you to open your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and refreshed. Open your eyes, Nicholas."
The Miracle:
Friday evening
The blood still on my hands
To think that she would leave me now
For that ungrateful man
Sole survivor
No witness to the crime
I must act fast to cover up
I think that there's still time
He'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
They'll buy into the words that I wrote
"This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
I'd take my own life before losing you"
Victoria:
Feeling good this Friday afternoon
I ran into Julian
Said we'd get together soon
He's always had my heart
He needs to know
I'll break free of the Miracle
It's time for him to go
This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
He'd kill his brother if he only knew
Their love renewed
They'd rendezvous
In a pathway out of view
They thought no one knew
Then came a shot out of the night
The Sleeper:
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
Until we fade away
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
We fade away
As their bodies lie still
And the ending draws near
Spirits rise through the air
All their fears disappear, it all becomes clear
A blinding light comes into view
An old soul exchanged for a new
A familiar voice comes shining through
Nicholas:
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
I learned about my life by living through you
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
Living my own life by learning from you
We'll meet again my friend someday soon
CNN report:
"news in London, France, Russia and Italy have deleted their lead story, all anticipating the outcome of the man considered to be a member of American nobility. And as you can imagine, as the skies have grown darker here over Washington, the mood has grown darker as well and people here are beginning to resign themselves to the possibility that they are witnessing yet another tragedy in a long string of misfortunes. Reaction from everywhere, from Washington and certainly from around the world has gues..."
Hypnotherapist:
"Open your eyes, Nicholas."
Nicholas:
"AAAH!"
Cannonball
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
