I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
But i always tell the truth,
Even when I lie.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Hey Hey!!!
Life's been good this week, except i noticed that i have to cut down on my running as i'm losing too much weight. LOL
hmmmzz there's basically nothing else la.
oh ya im on hols till wed!!! WWWOOOOHHHHHOOOO
k i've got to go. my metal mistress is calling ( gym ).
Ciaozzzz
Thank you Lord and Mother Mary for the gift of Oasis.
9:40 AM
Sunday, January 08, 2006
yesterday sucked. today sucked
but tmr i shall sieze the day
i hope
so help me Lord
10:00 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
yesterday was a good day indeed. had culture class yesterday and we were required to go and study the culture of a particular race. my group had to study the indian culture and as such we headed down to little india.
first stop was this restaurant called blue diamond. the rest of the group wanted to eat prata, but to their disappointment, the prata wasnt ready as we were there quite early. so we all had to settle for thosai. to capture the moment, we ordered the various kinds of thosais and even took photos of the uncle "ramasamy" tariking his teh tarik. lol
then we went to the saree shop, which belonged to thana's cousin or something, where sam was thought how to tie a saree. the ever helpful aunty "pushpasamy" even took out the grander wedding sarees to show us and we even had a little lesson on identifying sarees. there are even sarees made of gold which cost thousands. talk about the emperors new clothes. hehe
then we went to tekka mall so the girls could get their henna done, but lo and behold..............instead of them getting their henna done, i went for threading!! i've got killer brows now. LOLX
anywayz, the girls and willy did their henna eventually la, but i opted out cos i noticed a certain metamorphasis within my being after the threading and didnt want to look more like a girl.
then we bought some sweets and snacks for the class to sample and headed back to school.
the day was indeed fun.
thank you lord
thank you mother mary
9:18 AM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
a new year dawns.....lol
resolutions aren't for me. so everything pretty much should remain the same.
anyway noticed tht ive not been blogging for awhile now. yeah yeah festivities and what nots. ive done so many things been so many places met so many people over the last week. places -
attica ( godsent girls avail here ),
naughty girl ( devil sent girls avail here, but you've absoulutely gotta check out the band - the sha gies ),
ministry of sound ( had a very close up look on the exterior. never did enter tho as the queue turned me off ),
party world,
k box,
crazy elephant ( prc guitarist who strums like dave navarro ),
brewerkz,
iguana cafe ( indian pale ale rulez ) bla bla bla list goes on. basically ive never gotten home earlier than 7 in the morning the past week. that is of course if i came home. LOLX
bumped into lots of people from various nooks and crannies of my life. shout out to dominic, shaun, ganesh, chitra ermmm at least these are the only people i can remember ya, possibly cos i met them when i wasnt high. so yeah.
christmas was a mundane low key kinda thing this year as the clique wasnt really around. did the usual household visits and yeah.
ok i got to get to bed now. ive got an appt with someone special at harbourfront later so ya.
btw i realised tht i have another 52 fris and 52 sats to rock out but there aint tht many joints tht hit the spot here. suckz
piss out!
"from a distance, God is watching us." - someone who didnt mean anything to anyone till he said this something which caused everyone to be conscious of everything 1906 - 1998
3:36 PM
Friday, December 23, 2005
Longer than thereve been fishes in the ocean Higher than any bird ever flew Longer than therve been stars up in the heavens Ive been in love with you.
Stronger than any mountain cathedral Truer than any tree ever grew Deeper than any forest primeval I am in love with you.
Ill bring fires in the winters Youll send showers in the springs Well fly through the falls and summers With love on our wings.
Through the years as the fire starts to mellow Burning lines in the book of our lives Though the binding cracks and the pages start to yellow Ill be in love with you.
Longer than thereve been fishes in the ocean Higher than any bird ever flew Longer than thereve been stars up in the heavens Ive been in love with you I am in love with you..
12:17 AM
Monday, December 19, 2005
as i walk through life, i encounter thorns in the grass. they pierce right through the skin, sometimes even deeper than then skin. blood flows and i panic. i'm hurt. i'm alone. or so i think.
but i'm not.
tonight, there are some who have stepped on the same thorns that pierced me. they are bleeding too. i've seen it. they think they are alone. or so they think
but they're not.
i am deeply disturbed to know that they face the same fate that befell me before. i felt like an animal. caged. confused. anxious. scared. hopeless and about a thousand other negative feelings. no man was brought into this world to face such emotions.
yet, we are not alone.
when the clouds hung down upon me and my sun sank over the horizon, my whole world was dark. it was only in the dark that i saw the Love of God. it was a bright beacon. as bright, if not brighter than the sun.
this beacon was made up off ink and paper. it was a phrase consisting of 3 lines. it brought tears to my eyes when the sun wasnt shining. it brought a smile to my face when the clouds went away. it has a new meaning everytime i read it.
it is my perpetual solace.
i will put it down here for all of you who may need it. claim it and reflect on it.
The Book of Isaiah, Chapter 49, Versus 15 and 16
Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!
See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
Lord, i pray for those who think they walk alone. let them know lord that we may physically walk alone, yet Lord, we walk in Your Presence. therefore, we are never alone. even when everyone else walks out on us, when everyone else leaves, you don't Lord.
there are people out there who need to know this Lord. if it is your will, touch them tonight.
thank you Lord
Amen.
Mother Mary, please mother all mothers.
1:52 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
A prayer for Abs.
dear God,
i have noticed my abs becoming a little bloated nowadays due to lack of cardio and also the loads of beer i've been drinking. no longer would i use the word defined to describe them, i mean the only form of cardio i have nowadays is my sunday soccer. during the school term, i go for my morning runs before school, but the hols seem to have disabled me from arising early for my run. oh well... i shall make an effort to put cardio into my schedule. i did 750 sit ups today to start with and my abs hurt like hell now. so please help me God.
So close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters
trust I seek and I find in you
every day for us something new
open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know
so close no matter how far
couldn't be much more from the heart
forever trusting who we are
no nothing else matters
Finally Free
Hypnotherapist:
"You are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light. Allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this lifetime. As the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into consciousness remembering all you have learned. When I tell you to open your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and refreshed. Open your eyes, Nicholas."
The Miracle:
Friday evening
The blood still on my hands
To think that she would leave me now
For that ungrateful man
Sole survivor
No witness to the crime
I must act fast to cover up
I think that there's still time
He'd seem hopeless and lost with this note
They'll buy into the words that I wrote
"This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
I'd take my own life before losing you"
Victoria:
Feeling good this Friday afternoon
I ran into Julian
Said we'd get together soon
He's always had my heart
He needs to know
I'll break free of the Miracle
It's time for him to go
This feeling inside me
Finally found my love, I've finally broke free
No longer torn in two
He'd kill his brother if he only knew
Their love renewed
They'd rendezvous
In a pathway out of view
They thought no one knew
Then came a shot out of the night
The Sleeper:
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
Until we fade away
One last time
We'll lay down today
One last time
We fade away
As their bodies lie still
And the ending draws near
Spirits rise through the air
All their fears disappear, it all becomes clear
A blinding light comes into view
An old soul exchanged for a new
A familiar voice comes shining through
Nicholas:
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
I learned about my life by living through you
This feeling inside me
Finally found my life, I'm finally free
No longer torn in two
Living my own life by learning from you
We'll meet again my friend someday soon
CNN report:
"news in London, France, Russia and Italy have deleted their lead story, all anticipating the outcome of the man considered to be a member of American nobility. And as you can imagine, as the skies have grown darker here over Washington, the mood has grown darker as well and people here are beginning to resign themselves to the possibility that they are witnessing yet another tragedy in a long string of misfortunes. Reaction from everywhere, from Washington and certainly from around the world has gues..."
Hypnotherapist:
"Open your eyes, Nicholas."
Nicholas:
"AAAH!"
Cannonball
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know
